ZZZZZ..

Awesome, Mighty.

2005-04-29T22:20:00.000-07:00

It has been a very trying week for me. Emotionally i have been so close to breaking point, family issues, ministry issues. But yet, everytime I am reminded of the fact that I'm not alone. So many thoughts running through my head right now, abit of you, abit of you guys, abit of my problems, abit on my past experiences, and alot of melacholy. Guys, words can't express how much you guys mean to me, how i really cherish and love you guys. Serving God in the jc ministry is tough, but i know we can accomplish it together. A care group of 10 in YJ by may, 5 in AJ, 7 in SR and 3 in Zhonghua. God let your will be done father. =)

P.S. Bestie, i listened to tong hua, its awesome la.

2005-02-17T07:30:00.000-08:00

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I Love My Sheeps

2005-02-08T07:15:00.000-08:00

Yesterday we had our NEA reunion dinner. Although i guess many others might be blogging about is as well, I will still blog about it, because it TOTALLY rock.

We only had sausages, crab meat and fishballs. with my CG being the only one with fried rice and 7 bottles of drinks. Nothing extravagent i guess. What really touched me was people really enjoyed themselves. The look on the faces everywhere in the function room says it all. Seeing my guys showing love to one another by cooking for each other, leaving food on my plate when i went out to buy fried rice for them, celebrating the birthday of a jc sister, writing affirmations for each other, and embracing me towards the end. Sometimes, being the CL of one of the most loving care group makes you feel just so blessed and loved whenever we gather together.

Seeing a bunch of 17 and 18 yr old growing young men coming together to practice hard and actively participating in a short skit that reeks of total lameness, which makes all of us appear retarded touches me as well. Atlas, we won the NEA cny presentation. 'we are the champions, we are the champions' -croons jon tay. It just further reminded me how much potential these group of guys have, most of them were the same people that were in the team that won the Northeast presentation. The least i can do, is to provide a tribute to each and everyone of my guys. I'm a biased guy, I shall start with my sheeps. Haha.

Clement - Thanks for helping out in setting up the steamboats and tables, can see that you have grown ever since christmas, being more committed to God and even involved in the care group. As a friend, as a sheperd, it's so enouraging to see growth in you. Continue to seek God and we will see a care group size of 7 in YJ soon.

Si Han - Si Han, you bring enthuiasm to the care group with your active nature. You add strength to the group. Thanks for serving the rest food and drinks. YJ is there for you to claim ownership of, take it okay! haha.

Nicholas - Thanks for directing the drama. Indeed, we won again. It's not just about winning, but the group really bonded. Seeing the new believers earnestly partipating in the skit was truly encouraging. Take care of Guo Feng and Thaddy well and let's leave our marks all over NY and Aj. =)

Gerrard - The mere presence of you at the function room encourages me. Despite the problems and difficulties you face, you still fight for this chance to come and join us for the reunion dinner. I believed you have enjoyed yourself, remember the challenge I put out when we were eating 'ham-sheng', let's really see a CG in SR soon and very soon.

Alvin - Thank God for you dude. Saw how you rushed down after pe in your sexy shorts and tight fit shirt. haha. You add humour to the group, and thanks for being our care group,s 'handy man.' Even though you are in MI now, I believe you can stil impact those around you. Jia You!

Rayson - Haha, a good solo performance for the skit! You add strength to the group in more ways than one. In terms of finance especially. Thanks for being so submissive during the reunion dinner, adhering to my requests to do this or do that. Remember what i told you earlier in the week, God will bless SR, start lusting and hungering after those j1 dudes, the breakthrough will be when the first convert come in, and we will be flooded by srjcians.

Jansen - You truly add depth to the group. You neutralise my sometimes over senguine-ness and crappiness. Can see that you really touched your sheeps lives. Remember when were eating the 'ham-sheng' you said about Cal becoming a sheperd. I think it's truly possible, you have done it with Alvin. Let's really see a care group established in AJ soon okay.

Junliang - You too, neutralise me. Haha, 3 of us complement each other. Anyway, thanks for providing the camera yesterday, and adding the fun element in the group but doing various things(embracing gi gi etc.) You played a part in making the people feel satisfied yesterday. Thanks.

Martin - Thanks for being the unit cameraman, lending us your steamboat, helping to set up the equipments and buying of the drinks. Remember what i told you on the bus okay, you can do it!

And to Jed, Calvin and Thaddeus who miss out on the reunion for some reason or another, you guys miss out alot man! haha. Never mind, i will do another one for you guys on friday. haha

Anyway, we took many pictures, and I took alot of them with my sheperd! haha. Please do not be deceived by the traumatised look on his face, he was definitely enjoying himself. LOL.

The photos are posted seperately, cause I do not know how to post them together.. haha

2005-02-07T15:22:00.000-08:00

My guys showing love to Gi

2005-02-07T15:21:00.000-08:00

My guys and me showing love to gi.

2005-02-07T15:20:00.000-08:00

Gideon and me, see how happy he looks.

2005-01-30T11:57:00.000-08:00

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

2005-01-29T23:33:00.000-08:00

I'm here to let everybody know that after thinking long and hard, and after some evaluation, i realised im a cool dude. Just kidding!

I realised that i did not spend the money my parents gave me to buy cny clothes prudently. it's like totally not value for money? They gave me 300 hundred bucks.. 300! haha.. here goes:

I spent 70 dollars on this short sleeve casual billabong shirt. I thought it looked terrific, but there was only one problem. It was BLACK with some graffati and some cool designs on it. (Grandma wasnt happy.)

I spend another 60 on this polo tee from billabong. Again, fantastic design, its cream colour with some white, brown and red stripes. However this time, i realise that I do not look good in it.

I spend another 30 bucks on this army kinda berms. I like it personally, but quite hard to match it with the shirts i currently posess.

40 bucks was spent on this pair of ecko long pants, which i didn't even bother to try, i just find some size that is 2 sizes bigger than my waistline and i just left. At this point in time, you people out there must have realise how impatient I am with shopping.

Lastly, i spend another 30 bucks on this fairly tight fit black polo tee. Which i realise wasn't really that nice after all.

All in all, i spent 230 on clothes that I do not like or do not suit me!

Someone, call the fashion police please!!!

haha

2005-01-27T23:49:00.000-08:00

Hey dudes out there. Pardon my previous post okay.

Anyway, recently I realise that I'm quite a heartless person. Okay wait, depending on which aspect are you talking about. haha. Here is one such example:

(during lunch break today)

Friend: Jon, want to go seat with the retainees?
Me: No.(notice the firm full stop)
Friend: Wa..why not?
Me: Retained=different classes. Isn't it about time we all move on and sit seperately.
Friend: Quite mean, but you make sense.

haha...

Anyway, one thing i realise about malay food.
Usually, they will make the food sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo spicy right, even if it doesn't taste good, you won't taste it, cause it is just too spicy. Some amazing statistics to entertain you readers out there. I dispose my stool in school on the average of 6 times a week. This happened after i entered into Yishun Junior College, I never had this problem when i was in St Andrews. What does this mean? You decide. haha.

Let me open your eyes*

2005-01-27T23:37:00.000-08:00

I pretend that I'm glad you went away

These four walls closing more every day

And I'm dying inside

And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show

The pain is real even if nobody knows

And I'm crying inside

And nobody knows it but me



Why didn't I say the things I needed to say

How could I let my angel get away

Now my world is just a-tumblin' down

I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around



The nights are lonely the days are so sad and

I just keep thinking about the love that we had

And I'm missing you

And nobody knows it but me



I carry a smile when I'm broken in two

And I'm nobody without someone like you

I'm trembling inside

And nobody knows it but me (yeah)



I lie awake, it's a quarter past three

I'd scream out at night if I thought you'd hear me

Yeah, my heart is calling you

And nobody knows it but me



How blue can I get?

You could ask my heart

But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart

A million words couldn't say just how I feel

A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still



The nights are lonely the days are so sad and

I just keep thinking about the love that we had

And I'm missing you .

And nobody knows it but me



PS: This post was inspired by a strong surge of nostalgia.

Love me or hate me.

2005-01-24T19:25:00.000-08:00

Haha. I absent myself school today. Before you people out there start commenting thing on how wrong this act is, I am sick. Yes. Sick!

Of course, i would need a medical certificate to explain my absence to my civics tutor. This pressing need resulted in me paying a visit to Ang Mo Kio polyclinic. Goodness, there were like tons of students there like around 11+? Apparently, they are who i would like to classify as 'ponners' . There were a variety of them, Mayflower dudes, St Nix, Ang Mo Kio sec and ITE students. Seeing all these people there made me feel sorry for those who are really sick, especially the senior citizens, the young kids, and myself. Haha. Anyway, any sound minded people will know that the waiting time in the polyclinic is long, and i was assigned to this room where there are like 15 other people waiting for their turn? The doctor apparently was a malay by the name of 'Shariff'. Okay, I do have something against malays, but they are the mats and the minahs, but not intelligent and all loving malays like Shariff. After 30 mins of waiting and reading(i was reading my lit text) I saw this minah who was wearing ultra thick make up, wearing a mini skirt and a spaghetti coming to wait for her turn. Apparently, with the aid of truimph maximiser and tight pants, she look like some whore you will find off Jalan Eunos. Guess what she did after 5 mins. There she was, in an air conditioned area with other sick patients around her, she whipped out a pack of cigerattes, took one out, light it, and start puffing away. Oh boy, talk about the love of allah. What really peeves me is not the act itself, but the fact that one grown up lady( roughly around 20?) do not see the value in being considerate and goodness, we are all patients ain't we? Enough said.

Anyway, chinese new year is around the corner. Was talking to Si Han and Clement, I challenged them to hit 10 for YJ before March. Haha, its entirely possible since God is in it. And i told them i will treat all 10 of them, yes, every single one of them to SEOUL GARDEN with my hongbao money. Will be looking forward to talk more about this celebration by the end of March. haha.

I will never ever let you know.

2005-01-23T21:44:00.000-08:00

There are various reasons why i decided to start blogging.

Firstly, I came across this really cool blog which is crowned as the best blog in Asia. And i felt that maybe i can create something that is equally good. Haha.

Secondly, i thought this is a good way to record down my happenings in life. School, ministry and of course at the end of the year, it can remind me of how in one of my most critical years ever, he was always there to pull me through. Plus the fact that jc life will be over in a jiffy, good to record some memories huh. haha.

Thirdly, this will be a channel for me to maintain the standard of my english at its currently high level, as over the past month or so, I have transformed into a super chinese speaking boy who listens to jay chou on a consistent basis due to nature of my ministry. WHIE AR!

Anyway, i think the paris hilton background is cool la. haha. And a thousand minus nine hundred and ninety nine thanks to wynnie for helping me with this. And...i'm running out of things to say...

One day I wrote her name upon the strand

2005-01-23T10:01:00.000-08:00

One day I wrote her name upon the strand,
But came the waves and washed it away:
Again I wrote it with a second hand,
But came the tide, and made my pains his prey.
Vain man, said she, that dost in vain assay
A mortal thing so to immortalize!
For I myself shall like to this decay,
And eek my name be wiped out likewise.
Not so (quoth I), let baser things devise
To die in dust, but you shall live by fame:
My verse your virtues rare shall eternize,
And in the heavens write your glorious name;
Where, whenas death shall all the world subdue,
Our love shall live, and later life renew.

Goodness, ain't I like so super poetic..? ahhahahahaahahah

To everyone who reads this.. WHIE AR!?

2005-01-22T09:39:00.000-08:00

this is jontay's first blog.
three cheers and three cheers and three cheers to jontay!
hip hip huray!
hip hip hurray!